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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-26 12:45 am

Entomology at 1AM (Failed)

Hmmm… I was going to write about entomology tonight. I’ve loved it for years now — it’s not just a random interest, it’s something that’s been with me for a long time.

And I finally found a huge moth for taxidermy. A really big one. I have so much to say about it.

But I’m way too sleepy to explain everything properly right now.

So I’ll come back tomorrow and talk about it (with actual details this time).
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-26 12:06 am

im a dumb

A funny situation happened to me a few days ago, and I’d like to talk about it—and about how terrible my social skills can be.

It all started when my dad and my sister picked me up from school so we could have lunch at a nearby market. This specific market has little stores inside it, almost like a small mall. And yes, inside there was a pharmacy.

While we were waiting for the food to arrive, I said I was going to step into the pharmacy next door (just a short distance away) and that I’d be right back. The real reason I went in is because I love pharmacies and hospitals. I like the atmosphere. Whenever I can, I walk into one.

I went inside and started walking through the aisles, analyzing the shelves. I went straight to the nail care section (because they often have kits with tweezers and small tools I could use for something in my room… like examining an insect or some small animal I might find). I got excited when I saw the kits, and then I decided to ask if they sold syringes/needles. Even now, I admit I had no idea whether syringes were actually sold in pharmacies—that’s why I asked the cashier.

When I approached her, nervous because my social skills are not the best, I asked if they sold syringes there. She quickly confirmed that they did and asked what I needed them for.

I froze.

Because I obviously couldn’t say, “Oh, I just want to buy needles and syringes in case I use them for some future procedure and also because I’m weirdly fascinated by syringes.”

No.

I could have just said I needed a basic, generic syringe. That would have worked.

Instead, I said:

“For application.”



Application?

Really?

Sherlock Holmes, wow.

Now tell me—what syringe is NOT for application?

All of them are.

She looked at me like she hated her job and wanted to eliminate the nervous, socially awkward teenager standing in front of her.

Don’t get me wrong—I can talk to people and present projects just fine… but I’m not the best socially, and my social anxiety has definitely ruined some interactions.

Anyway, she seemed to understand my request and went straight to a drawer to get the syringes. I imagined she would show them to me and say something like, “Here it is—is this what you were looking for?”

But no.

She calmly placed it in a customized pharmacy plastic bag and said, “That will be 2.50. What’s your payment method?”

Oh.

I wasn’t planning on buying it. I just wanted to take a look. Or confirm that pharmacies were where people bought syringes.

I had no money.

I couldn’t refuse.

Nervous, I told her I’d quickly get money from my dad and come right back. I ran to our table and asked him if I could “buy some gum.”

Thank God he said yes—I lie very convincingly. I even started a conversation about how terrible cinnamon-flavored gum is.

When I went back, I bought gum and the syringe. I stuffed the syringe into my backpack and the gum into the bag of food—along with the last bit of my dignity, because I couldn’t bring myself to say “no” to the woman who sold it to me.

I wonder if the whole thing was a tactic to make customers buy more.

Did I fall for it?

In general… I don’t know. But here’s the lesson: never buy a syringe if you’re not actually going to use it.

Now I have one in my backpack and absolutely no idea how to use it.

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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-25 11:28 pm

WHEEEERE HAVEEE YOU BEEEEENNN?!?! (lol music ._.)

I’m fully aware that I’ve been taking a while to post lately… but I ask for your patience because, unfortunately, I lost the notebook where I write everything before posting here (yes, I draft everything in a notebook first). That discouraged me a little and made it hard to keep going. However, I’ve decided that while I’m still looking for it, I’ll continue posting updates.

Unfortunately, I haven’t found any animal for dissection so far, even though I’ve tried hard to attract them (for example, placing fruit and water near a bird’s nest… it didn’t work, and I ended up standing there for quite a long time waiting).

Maybe I should just wait for the right moment.

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Denise ([staff profile] denise) wrote in [site community profile] dw_news2026-02-10 03:03 pm

Update on legal cases: one new victory! :) One new restriction :(

Back in August of 2025, we announced a temporary block on account creation for users under the age of 18 from the state of Tennessee, due to the court in Netchoice's challenge to the law (which we're a part of!) refusing to prevent the law from being enforced while the lawsuit plays out. Today, I am sad to announce that we've had to add South Carolina to that list. When creating an account, you will now be asked if you're a resident of Tennessee or South Carolina. If you are, and your birthdate shows you're under 18, you won't be able to create an account.

We're very sorry to have to do this, and especially on such short notice. The reason for it: on Friday, South Carolina governor Henry McMaster signed the South Carolina Age-Appropriate Design Code Act into law, with an effective date of immediately. The law is so incredibly poorly written it took us several days to even figure out what the hell South Carolina wants us to do and whether or not we're covered by it. We're still not entirely 100% sure about the former, but in regards to the latter, we're pretty sure the fact we use Google Analytics on some site pages (for OS/platform/browser capability analysis) means we will be covered by the law. Thankfully, the law does not mandate a specific form of age verification, unlike many of the other state laws we're fighting, so we're likewise pretty sure that just stopping people under 18 from creating an account will be enough to comply without performing intrusive and privacy-invasive third-party age verification. We think. Maybe. (It's a really, really badly written law. I don't know whether they intended to write it in a way that means officers of the company can potentially be sentenced to jail time for violating it, but that's certainly one possible way to read it.)

Netchoice filed their lawsuit against SC over the law as I was working on making this change and writing this news post -- so recently it's not even showing up in RECAP yet for me to link y'all to! -- but here's the complaint as filed in the lawsuit, Netchoice v Wilson. Please note that I didn't even have to write the declaration yet (although I will be): we are cited in the complaint itself with a link to our August news post as evidence of why these laws burden small websites and create legal uncertainty that causes a chilling effect on speech. \o/

In fact, that's the victory: in December, the judge ruled in favor of Netchoice in Netchoice v Murrill, the lawsuit over Louisiana's age-verification law Act 456, finding (once again) that requiring age verification to access social media is unconstitutional. Judge deGravelles' ruling was not simply a preliminary injunction: this was a final, dispositive ruling stating clearly and unambiguously "Louisiana Revised Statutes §§51:1751–1754 violate the First Amendment of the U.S. Constitution, as incorporated by the Fourteenth Amendment of the U.S. Constitution", as well as awarding Netchoice their costs and attorney's fees for bringing the lawsuit. We didn't provide a declaration in that one, because Act 456, may it rot in hell, had a total registered user threshold we don't meet. That didn't stop Netchoice's lawyers from pointing out that we were forced to block service to Mississippi and restrict registration in Tennessee (pointing, again, to that news post), and Judge deGravelles found our example so compelling that we are cited twice in his ruling, thus marking the first time we've helped to get one of these laws enjoined or overturned just by existing. I think that's a new career high point for me.

I need to find an afternoon to sit down and write an update for [site community profile] dw_advocacy highlighting everything that's going on (and what stage the lawsuits are in), because folks who know there's Some Shenanigans afoot in their state keep asking us whether we're going to have to put any restrictions on their states. I'll repeat my promise to you all: we will fight every state attempt to impose mandatory age verification and deanonymization on our users as hard as we possibly can, and we will keep actions like this to the clear cases where there's no doubt that we have to take action in order to prevent liability.

In cases like SC, where the law takes immediate effect, or like TN and MS, where the district court declines to issue a temporary injunction or the district court issues a temporary injunction and the appellate court overturns it, we may need to take some steps to limit our potential liability: when that happens, we'll tell you what we're doing as fast as we possibly can. (Sometimes it takes a little while for us to figure out the exact implications of a newly passed law or run the risk assessment on a law that the courts declined to enjoin. Netchoice's lawyers are excellent, but they're Netchoice's lawyers, not ours: we have to figure out our obligations ourselves. I am so very thankful that even though we are poor in money, we are very rich in friends, and we have a wide range of people we can go to for help.)

In cases where Netchoice filed the lawsuit before the law's effective date, there's a pending motion for a preliminary injunction, the court hasn't ruled on the motion yet, and we're specifically named in the motion for preliminary injunction as a Netchoice member the law would apply to, we generally evaluate that the risk is low enough we can wait and see what the judge decides. (Right now, for instance, that's Netchoice v Jones, formerly Netchoice v Miyares, mentioned in our December news post: the judge has not yet ruled on the motion for preliminary injunction.) If the judge grants the injunction, we won't need to do anything, because the state will be prevented from enforcing the law. If the judge doesn't grant the injunction, we'll figure out what we need to do then, and we'll let you know as soon as we know.

I know it's frustrating for people to not know what's going to happen! Believe me, it's just as frustrating for us: you would not believe how much of my time is taken up by tracking all of this. I keep trying to find time to update [site community profile] dw_advocacy so people know the status of all the various lawsuits (and what actions we've taken in response), but every time I think I might have a second, something else happens like this SC law and I have to scramble to figure out what we need to do. We will continue to update [site community profile] dw_news whenever we do have to take an action that restricts any of our users, though, as soon as something happens that may make us have to take an action, and we will give you as much warning as we possibly can. It is absolutely ridiculous that we still have to have this fight, but we're going to keep fighting it for as long as we have to and as hard as we need to.

I look forward to the day we can lift the restrictions on Mississippi, Tennessee, and now South Carolina, and I apologize again to our users (and to the people who temporarily aren't able to become our users) from those states.
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-09 12:27 am
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Just another page abt my Dreams...

Lately, I’ve been so focused on science that I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to watch a random, silly video or simply waste time. I think I’ve grown unaccustomed to it. In a way, this feels like something good: I spend about 50% of my day away from electronics, and the other 50% researching and writing for my blog. And I am certain that I will keep writing more from now on.

This is only my first day, and we already have so many texts here. I have no idea whether this fast pace is just because I’m starting out and have a lot to say (and that, eventually, my writing rhythm will slow down), or if, just in case, I’m simply someone who overthinks everything. Will this blog ever be abandoned at some point in my life? I don’t think so, because it won’t be only about science. I also plan to post a bit about my daily routine and my personal tastes.

For example, right now I’m lying in my bed, under the blankets, writing this late at night (11:40 p.m.). All because I can’t sleep—I keep wanting to write more and more. I feel like I need to get things out of my system, and I am very restless. I’m glad I picked up this habit so quickly, and I truly hope that writing continues to be a hobby for me (maybe writing a little every day will help).

One of my few problems with this is that I have too much fun talking about scientific topics, studying cases, and reading books. In general, I get lost very easily and end up not finishing my projects, nor paying much attention at school (which is definitely not recommended), especially since I’m currently in my first year of high school. Next year, I’ll be entering a technical high school focused on chemistry (unfortunately, they don’t accept first-year students, only second-year ones). This means I only have this year to finish my personal projects—such as, yes, a biology and genetic mutation project in which I attempt to prove that superhumans could exist. You’ll see this project on my blog eventually… if I gather the courage to finish it. Procrastination is still one of my weaknesses.

This Monday (tomorrow), I believe I’ll have my first private chemistry lesson after school (my classes end at 4:00 p.m.). I’ll arrive home tired, but happy—after all, chemistry is a subject I urgently need to start studying if I want to pursue a career in biomedicine. I was a bit sad when I realized that getting into a good university isn’t just about knowing medicine or having scientific curiosity. Apparently, you also need to know general subjects like history, geography, and mathematics—subjects I completely despise. It’s ironic, because just a few years ago I was surprisingly good at history, and it was my favorite subject. My interest in science only truly appeared halfway through my ninth year of school.

Of course, I’ve always been curious and already had some unusual habits, but my love for science is not something very old.

Sometimes this makes me wonder: is this permanent, or just another hyperfocus? I don’t think it’s temporary. I’m not that focused to the point of an extreme obsession—it’s simply something I genuinely love and want to grow closer to. No one knows the pleasure I feel when discovering new things and reading interesting books.

Among my interests are general medicine—I love diseases and everything related to ancient medicine. I’m not particularly fond of clinical, office-based medicine, but rather of medical discoveries themselves. I know many historical physicians and feel a strong passion for them. As is already expected from this blog and my previous posts, I love learning about historical figures in science (just not physics… yet). I do intend to study them more—it’s another subject that interests me.

It’s not that I dislike physics. In truth, I enjoy theoretical physics. I can openly say that I’m terrible at practical, school-level physics problems and that I would never pursue a degree in physics. What fascinates me are questions about the universe, spacetime, and reality. These topics deeply intrigue me, and I intend to study them further. That said, I still carry my good old hatred for mathematics and calculations. I hate this subject. I tolerate calculations in science and chemistry because I enjoy the disciplines themselves, but I genuinely cannot understand a mathematics teacher who truly enjoys teaching math and actually chose to major in it.

Like—
why?
You had so many options, and you chose that…
Tragic.

Before wanting to work in biomedicine, as I mentioned earlier, my dream was to become a history professor. I truly liked—and still like—the subject, just not as intensely as before. I wouldn’t say it was my ultimate dream, but it was certainly something I was likely to pursue, teaching at universities.

People are confusing, and I’m no exception. I’ve had so many dreams that the same question always returns: is science just another one of them? I don’t think so—but who knows what the future holds? Just a few days ago, I wanted to study pharmacy. And a few years ago, my dream was to open a café in France.

Look at that—who would have thought that the future scientist once chose cooking? Yes, it’s a hobby of mine. I really enjoy cooking, and it makes me feel complete. I’ve even taken about two courses—both abandoned, unfortunately, due to my constant laziness in attending classes. Perhaps I’m not meant to turn my hobbies into professions. All my hobbies are mediocre, and I don’t blame myself for that—after all, they’re hobbies. I hate putting effort into things that aren’t worth my time.

I’m someone with very limited energy. If I dedicate my mental and physical energy to turning a hobby into a profession, what energy would remain for something I will actually use in life to earn a living?

Anyway, for the curious, here is a list of all my dreams from sixth grade until now:

Chef

Owning a café in France

Professional goalkeeper

Piano teacher / pianist

University history professor

Theater (preferably abroad)

Cinema

Photographer

Psychologist

Hospital psychologist

Child educator / babysitter / caregiver

Pharmacist

Pharmaceutical researcher and university professor

Biomedical scientist (current dream)


Yes… that’s a lot. They’re probably not in chronological order, but seeing all these dreams together in one place is madness. I’d like to explain each one briefly:

Chef / café in France: self-explanatory. I genuinely enjoy cooking, and when I didn’t yet have a clear dream, I would always say I wanted to own a café—especially in France, which I consider one of the most beautiful and gastronomically rich places in the world.

Professional goalkeeper: a short-lived madness that came after the World Cup. I watched the players and realized I wasn’t in love with football itself, but with the act of defending the goal. Impressive. I’ve never liked being in the spotlight anyway.

Piano and history teacher: both are similar. I enjoy piano and history for very similar—if not identical—reasons. So why teaching? The answer is simple: my love for teaching comes from my mother, who is a teacher, and from my older brother, who is also a teacher (believe it or not, of history). This connects to my next dream…

Child educator / caregiver: I love children—any of them. I enjoy caring for them and their innocence. I always wanted to work as a babysitter, but when I tried to find a job, I discovered they wouldn’t accept minors (obviously). I learned that if I studied pedagogy, I could work with children. The idea stayed with me for a long time and only faded when I found other interests. Otherwise, I might be caring for babies today.

Theater / cinema / photography: all three share similar stories. I’m an artistic person. I love drawing, watching films and series—I enjoy everything about the arts. When I discovered degrees in these areas, I fell in love with them. The only reason I gave them up was realizing that my country doesn’t value art as much as it should. And my dream of traveling the world wouldn’t be complete if I pursued those degrees.

Hospital / clinical psychologist: easily one of my biggest dreams. Originally, I planned to study psychology, possibly specializing in hospital psychology, because I truly enjoy that side of medicine and hospitals. My plan was to open a clinic or work in a hospital, and during vacations, travel the world—another lifelong dream. I remember sitting on my mother’s bed and telling her I was afraid of studying pharmacy and that I loved psychology. I almost chose psychology—it was very close. I still love the subject and promised myself that one day I’d study it purely for learning, without professional obligations.

What ultimately pushed me toward pharmacy was my mother. I love science and pharmacy (my interest even started because of Shinobu Kocho), but I’ve always leaned toward the humanities and always found them easier. Science was never my strong suit. I stood at the edge of a cliff between:

a moderate love, but great ease, for psychology

an overwhelming love for science, but great difficulty studying it


My mother encouraged me to study what I loved. She convinced me that both degrees would be difficult, and that science only felt hard because I had never studied the basics or truly tried to engage with it.

She was right.

When I began studying biology, enjoying books, and turning my hobbies into academic interests, I realized that science can be easy. I still have a lot to study, but I know now that it isn’t impossible. Psychology has become more distant—not unloved, but no longer as intense as before.

The rest of my dreams were simply small shifts within the scientific field. I initially chose pharmacy because it was broad, but today I realize that diseases and everything surrounding biomedicine fascinate me. In fact, I was very torn between biochemistry and biomedicine.

This was a bit about my dreams and how my life has been moving around them. I realize I should learn to write about just one subject—I noticed how much I changed focus halfway through this text. Anyway, I think that’s it. Until the next entry.
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-08 10:09 pm
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The Price of Being a Scientist

Once again, my research led me to a place I truly enjoy research, kids!

While once more digging deeper into the life of our dear Koch, I discovered that he was married twice, to two different women. His first marriage was to Emmy Fraatz in 1867, a union that ended in divorce some years later. In 1893, he married again, this time to Hedwig Freiberg, who was twenty-nine years younger than him.
I went out of my way to learn more about the marriage between Koch and Hedwig because I had hoped—perhaps naïvely—that Koch would turn out to be better than other married scientists I had read about. And yet, to my disappointment, nothing really changes. Apparently, scientists are among the worst possible people to be in a relationship with. One day, I may even make a list of the top five worst scientists in history for a stable and healthy marriage.
Despite everything, I was still taken aback when I read that Koch was introspective and—believe it or not—a difficult husband. Fortunately, he was not as horrifying as J. Marion Sims, the so-called father of gynecology, who turned family life into a cold clinical nightmare; nor as cruel as Fritz Haber, who forced his wife—Germany’s first woman to earn a doctorate in chemistry—to abandon her studies and career in order to serve him as a housewife.
Faced with such horrors, one might conclude that Koch was merely questionable, yet tolerable in daily life. Unfortunately, the story worsens. Robert Koch was well known for conducting experiments on his own wife—not physical experiments, but emotional ones. Another troubling fact is that he abandoned his first wife, who had supported him despite everything, even while living surrounded by glass tubes and chemical fumes, in order to be with a seventeen-year-old model—Hedwig Freiberg. At the time, this caused a major scandal.
I write this to show that, once again, after quick research and well-read books, I am forced to conclude that all scientists—or at least a large majority of them—are completely mad and deeply questionable. I admire them all, yet I cannot ignore how socially repugnant many of them were, even if I understand this as part of the scientific stereotype.

At times, I find myself wondering: Must I become so obsessed with science that I grow cruel to the people around me, all in the name of producing “good” research? I hope that to be an intelligent, well-informed scientist—perhaps even one worthy of a Nobel Prize—I will not need to become socially repellent as so many before me were.

Once again, I am left asking: does science truly need to be this cruel?
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-08 03:25 pm
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How Robert Koch Changed the Way I See Science

I would like to talk a little about how my introduction to science happened and how I became fascinated with Robert Koch. I remember it as if it were yesterday.

My mother was travelling to another city to take a civil service examination — a large city. While she was taking the exam, my father took me and my younger sister out for a walk. The city was, in fact, very welcoming and lively. I remember visiting many places before eventually stopping at a library. It was small, yes, but it contained so many books that I simply could not remain still.
My past self had always been slightly obsessed with science, so I ran through the shelves and large tables, searching for the small labels that read “Biology,” or perhaps “Science,” “Chemistry”… When I finally found the general science section, I picked up several books and began to flip through them until I came across one whose title I unfortunately no longer remember. In general, it discussed spirituality and science at the same time. I would truly love to read it again, as I never had the opportunity to finish it; if anyone happens to know its title, a comment would help me greatly.
In any case, I sat down in an armchair and began reading right there. The beginning was difficult to understand: complex words and passages whose meanings I could barely grasp. But as I often say, if you read a book and do not understand it at first, the worst thing you can do is abandon it and give up. So, even
without understanding much, I continued reading… until, gradually, the words began to make sense.

That was when I noticed a specific name: “Robert Koch.” I do not remember exactly what was said about him, but I recall reading about vaccines and about how Koch discovered bacteria in what seemed to be a contradictory manner. While many asked, “Why did this disease appear?”, Koch asked a different and far more insightful question: “What is always present in the body when the disease appears?”
Shaping the question in this way and shifting the perspective toward something invisible to society was, for me, truly transformative. To my younger self, that was the correct way of thinking — the way that great scientists of the world had always reasoned.
I had to stop reading when my parents returned to the library to leave. I remember pulling my father aside and asking, “Robert Koch invented the vaccine, didn’t he?” — because the book did not state this explicitly. The sentences confused me, but I had understood the context and connected the ideas in my mind: “If he discovered bacteria… then he must have discovered the vaccine as well.”
And BOOM — later on, my father researched it and found that I was partially correct. Of course, not only Koch, but also Louis Pasteur played a crucial role. Fortunately (or unfortunately), I was already a devoted fan of Shinobu Kocho, and upon noticing the similarity of the surnames and the fact that both were scientists, my focus inevitably remained on Robert Koch alone. My apologies, Louis Pasteur XDD

In any case, this is how I discovered Koch and began learning more about him, growing fond of his scientific perspective and finding inspiration for future study. I dream of the day when I might become like him — or at least somewhat similar — contributing to and perhaps revolutionising science and biomedicine.
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-08 02:55 pm
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Following the Foundations of Science

There are certain names that do more than simply inspire me; they remain constantly on my mind, returning whenever I study, read, or reflect on the foundations of science. Andreas Vesalius, who dared to correct human anatomy with his own hands and challenge long-held misconceptions, and Robert Koch, whose tireless investigation of unseen enemies forever transformed our understanding of disease, hold a place of great admiration in my studies. Their work represents more than historical milestones; it reflects courage, discipline, and an unwavering commitment to observation and evidence.

I do not admire them in a superficial way, nor merely as figures from the past. I feel motivated to follow their methods, to repeat their observations, and to understand the reasoning that guided their discoveries. Through their clarity of thought and intellectual rigor, they demonstrate what it truly means to study life, illness, and the human body with honesty and precision.

This motivation naturally extends into practice. As an enthusiast of animal dissection, I often find myself reflecting on how strongly I wish to dissect certain creatures: rabbits, pigs, birds (avian species in general), chickens, and fish. In all honesty, I must admit that the dissection of fish is not among my greatest strengths; I pursue it mainly because suitable animals for dissection are not so easily obtained. To dissect, to observe, and to record both structure and decay is therefore not an act of obsession, but a deliberate effort to understand the natural world more deeply. It is, in its own way, a continuation of a scientific legacy—one grounded in curiosity, patience, and respect for the knowledge built by those who came before us.
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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-08 02:50 pm
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DAY 24 LOLLL THE BEST DAY

So, in yet another one of my researches into science and my unconditional affection for Shinobu Kocho, I discovered that our incredible scientist Robert Koch (note the almost identical names) has a special day dedicated to him — or rather, to tuberculosis. The discovery of the tuberculosis bacillus on March 24, 1882, was so significant that March 24 is now recognized as World Tuberculosis Day. The 24th!!! Exactly the same day that Shinobu Kocho was born. I admire them both so much that I would gladly change my surname to Koch.


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soga16 ([personal profile] soga16) wrote2026-02-08 12:50 pm
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Thats my first post sorry im a bit nervous

hii world

I hope you like my little science blog. I plan on posting some big things here and also venting about my life in general.
I won’t lie, I only came here because I hate Twitter and Tumblr. Over there I feel watched, like I can’t say any random nonsense without being judged. Here I feel safe. Quiet.

You know what I mean, right? It’s weird, I know. I just feel like I can be myself here.
Anyway! That’s it, I think. O_O